Adelyn Mae Cosgrove

 

Adelyn Mae Cosgrove

06/15/2016-06/15/2016

 

Adelyn Mae Cosgrove was born 6lbs 14oz and 19 inches long on June 15th, 2016 at 5:23pm. She was due on the 11th of June. We were suppose to wait another week to possible have her induced, but the last stress test revealed low amniotic fluid, and my wife Ashley Cosgrove was induced later that night on June 14th 2016. She went into labor around 3am the next morning. After being in labor for hours she gave in and took the epidural because the baby was not dropping into position. Shortly after that the Adelyn's heart rate spiked over 170 and they started to move my wife to the operating room to have a caesarean section. The paternal grandmother and myself were giving hospital gowns and told to get ready and they would come get us before the delivery started happening. We started imagining how big she was going to be. I took pictures of me all suited up ready to meet my first child and posted one to Facebook. In a matter of 10mins everything changed. The doctor walked back in saying that my wife could still feel things and that the mediations weren't keeping her numb. They told us she needed to be gassed, and we couldn't be in the operating room while she was under. At 5:23 Adelyn Mae was born, but she was unresponsive. Our little girl who was just kicking and moving around minutes before wasn't breathing on her own. They started medicine and chest compressions. Adelyn's heart went from 80bpm to 20bpm. They worked on her for 25mins at 20bpm. She lived a total 40mins without breathing on her own after she was born. The doctor came in and explained they were working on my baby and that things didn't look good. The whole room started crying as I went into shock. I started praying for Adelyn's life as the tears started to fall. My wife was wheeled back into the labor room. My wife wasn't completely awake from the operation. She looked around and asked why everyone was crying and asked what was wrong. I leaned in... grabbed her hand and told her that our baby girl wasn't responsive. She told me no it's okay, she is being worked on, and that GOD was taking care of her. She sounded really drugged up and very positive that things were going to be okay. Then, my wife started to fully wake up. She started to cry, and as she was starting to finally realize things didn't look good the doctor that had been working on her walked in and told us Adelyn passed away. This has been the hardest thing I've ever been through in my entire life. My wife started to blame herself saying she held out too long on the medicine, and I started to think the doctor were lying to me and that they dropped my child. The devil started playing his tricks on us, but we were determined to get through our negative thoughts. Our Pastor Steve Peterson came down that night and Baptized our baby girl. Then, the photographer came and we got to dress and hold our baby for a photoshoot. The next day we had a lot of visitors of family and friends. We held on to our little girl as long as we could before she had to go for a autopsy. The day after we let her go we started to plan the funeral as my wife was release from the hospital. Now we are behind in bills and gained new ones that we never thought we'd have to pay or even thing about having to pay. I spent months completing Adelyn's bedroom to have it torn apart the day after she was born. We've decided to keep everything that we've bought for her, but I had to have family removed before my wife came home. My wife has been through enough. Everyone keeps saying if there is anything I can do just ask or get a hold of me. Someone even offered to come over and clean for us, but really we need help finically. We have rent, two car payments, the gas and electric, internet bill, insurance, and all the cost of the hospital/funeral. The only thing that has been paid was insurance. I've already missed two weeks of works, and my wife will not return for 8weeks. Her disability payments wont start for another month. Therefore, we will be even more behind on bills. My sister started our a gofundme account online. So for over 200 has been given which is enough to pay one car payment. Anyone can donate here... https://www.youcaring.com/sean-and-ashley-cosgrove-588182